A past message from mum that reminds me how much I SHOULDN'T give up on studies.

How she called up and asked for my DAE when I was at work and was busy

How she texted me when my DAE was approved

How she was more anxious than I was

How she stood on my same side when I so much didn't want to go to NYP JAE's assigned course when dad suggested I should.

I swear, if it wasn't for that message

Thanks mum, for the opportunity,

For the motivation and effort,

I will not let you down, I will continue to strive.

I will continue to update you of my studies, be it talking to you when eyes cannot see your presence,

I'm not stupid, I will prove those who belittle me, wrong

And that includes daddy(sadly) and his sibling side.

I will still think of mum,

My heart still aches so badly,

Every phone call, silently deep inside how much I wish it was mum, even if she's gone how much I wished it was a phone call from the other world

How much I wished I dreamnt of mum and I can talk to her and ask 'Are you doing well?'

Loves,

At least for next week.

I will be back to my normal self.

I will, I will.