I need a listening ear.

More than half of my life is gone now, my prayers don't work at all.

My dream of being a doctor (which I still don't think I'm able to achieve) is part of the reason why I wanted so much to go after it.

To find cure for the diseases.

The disease that make me lost my kins.

To find cure for people suffering.

To ease their pain and to make the world happier, a better place.
To find new medicines, to research, to make everyone healthy once again.

I just want everyone to be happy. It's that hard

I know I'm not clever, smart, wise or intelligent or whatever.

I know I'm too greedy, I aim too high for my dreams.

But it's not just a want and desire to be a doctor, there's a reason deep inside.

I work hard, very hard but the results I get are not always the one I want.

I got a GPA of 3 for sem 1, it may be awesome to others,

But this is the best I could get, and it's very disappointing for me cos somehow I know this is my limit.

And I need to score at least a 3.8 for university.

It's hard, so damn hard with a pea brain like mine.

I need to stay strong right now.

My mum still needs me, my family still needs me.

I need to work doubly hard, I won't get disappointed so easily again.

They say I'm an optimist, but I'm more of a pessimist now.
I love you mum. Very very very much.

Loves,

Tears can't change anything.