School started off damn wrongly and sucky-ly
Woke up at 645am, rushed to bathe and rushed to school
Hair in total mess, sms-ed J, tio caught by goy
Fone confiscated, & hair check somemore
No pin, lucky never tio caught again .
Damn dead without phone, tio suan-ed times to times again
It's nevermind, but it's totally sucky w/o anyone to talk to beside me
Esp when I'm the super commentive and talkative type
What's worse, fone gone .
GONE !
Oh god. goy was nowhere to be found so = no fone totally today
:(
Today totally bad luck day
Nothing went right
He's upset too.
I want to share he's prob. I want to know what happened
I am kpo, but I care for you (:

I want my fone luhs !!!!!!
SObs.
I totally loves my friends ! thanks for all that support and advices :DDDDDDDD

OIE DON'T KEEP COPY PEOPLE LEH PUT IN UR BLOG SAY YOU HATE COPYCATS BUT YET YOU ARE ONE YOURSELF. SAY DON'THAVE AR. PLEASE LOR. REFLECT ON WHAT YOU JUST DID. NOT EVEN 24HOURS AGO. DON'T TELL ME YOU HAVE SUPER POOR MEMORY. I DON'T ACCEPT EXCUSES. USE YOUR BRAIN AND THINK. WHAT GOOD WILL SERVE YOU IF YOU COPY PEOPLE? THE LESSON YOU LEARNT NOT ENOUGH AR? AND PLEASE DON'T BE EMO AND KPKB. SHH. OKAY LOR YOU SAY YOU NEVER COPY US. THEN OTHER PEOPLE LEH? DON'T HAVE MEH. YOU DARE SAY DON'T HAVE. DON'T BE A LIAR AND FACE THE FACT. WAKE UP PLEASE. THIS IS SINGAPORE.

& i sounded damn evil
but that's wad i wanted to say allright
told you i'm DIRECT

I'm like finally, done with my TA !!!!!!!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :D
After like 4 hours of struggling sensations
And I havent eaten my dinner yet
See, that's how I gotta my gastrics.
Work's important, but health more important mahs.
Such stubborn head I am.
Okay la. I go eat now.
Tomorrow lucky late starting of school
If not I confirm can't wake up and sure tio DC >.<
I'm super dead beat now.
I'm super idea-less and brainjuice-less
I need energy !

So readers, can your please be a kind soul and let me eat ur up?
I need energy from food sources like you all you see..
I'm actually a cannibal !
ROAR !!!

Kay enough of nonsenses, my stomach's grumbling like hell now.

PS: Still any kind souls willing to be eaten by me?
See I still don't want go eat and insist on blogging first LEY !
HAHAHAA just kidding.
& 4A2-ians ! Let's SIAL together ! (:
May be back next week.
Miss me.

I'm DEAD !!!!!!!!!!!!
I lost my fulscap which has my written work of my coursework
And I gotta hand in tomorrow
All that late night doing and brain storming
I'm so careless.

:(

1am sleeping for yesterday
It was a kind of normal timing for me as I usually sleep much later like 4am
But today's odd
I doze off more than 20times repeatly
& I don't know why
Felt so restless and moodless today .
Hall sleep, infront of cher sleep, break also sleep.
And I was laughed at many many times for sleeping and also doing stupid stuffs
Even teachers laughed at me for my speech and comments
=.=
Today's crazy.
So maluuuuuuuuuuuuu
Don't know what's the prob w me today .
But I don't actually mind la (:
What's life w/o a bit of amusement?

I feel that suddenly I become very temperament la
Probably cos .
Stressed? Or late night sleep? Or..
Common test's 2+ weeks away
Somehow, I shouldn't be stressing myself out so much
Later I got white hair liao how
HAHA.
Went to school today w him :D
Things are getting better, but I'm going more and more crazy
I gona wake up
I gona buck up with my work
I gona go poly
Or maybe I just go higher IT after N.
I want be doctor !
:/
Hais.
Doubt I can, but I still aren't gona give up .
I gona try all my best till I can't
(:

Btw, my sister is selling everlast shoes at $15 only !
Half price of normal !
Size 5, wore about 2-3 times.
In 95% good condition.

Red poka dots.

She said it's too small =.=
Anyone interested? Please tag me all right?
Be quick !
(:

Yes yes yes :D
Please invite me ! Jessie's making her blog alive after days !
Tio extend for two hours for sat
Ended up no party-ing for shriiya's birthday
Nevermind. We went joel house done pedicure instead
It's beautiful (:

Coming up is gona be real random
Please excuse yourself if you are not interested (:
Edmund's married.
I'm curious, and darn bored.

ME: How many times did you fuck J at night?
I know I sounded pervertic.
But I'm like that one what. Direct
For most of the times lar.
EDM : Two
ME : Why don't want more? When want have kids? How many?
EDM : Why lehs? Want fuck with me isit. I want to have kids wit you luhs .
ME : =.=
Then he started saying I fuck before also, in other words, aren't a virgin
ME : Yala yala. How you know.
PS : I was yala-ing jokingly ars.
EDM : WA! got someone want fuck with you one meh? See I know u not virgin want. See also can see.
ME: *speechless*
And so today he asked me yesterday got fuck anot

=.=
By the way, we are all joking la
We aren't that pervertic nor serious ehhs
Please don't have the wrong impression of us (:

Will be back like tomorrow I think

I aren't going to make a decision.
I want life as how it is coming now.

Here I am once again (:
Typing and brainstorming on task analysis,
There's still alot more to go.
Oh yeah, I handed up my ta to mdmZ yesterday wanting her to help me check for any mistakes etc
In the end I made a mistake which ended up as if I was the first to hand in =.=
So cher showed it to the whole class and made mine as example
So she also expect me to do others like identifying priorities fast fast
I was like okay next time I don't want be first to hand in liao =.=
By the way, recent comments from chers go like this
Jessie, you are not too bad. Have potential. But you need to spend your time in school more wisely. And, talk less and listen more
o.o
Okay I already broke my promise to myself not to sleep in class,
Not to talk in class, pay attention,
And must revise.

Everyday 330pm ending of class makes me want to slack more in school
I think I gotta really fully make use of my time well
No extra time to spare.
I going to be super hardworking already
And, everyday's amount of books in my bag exceeds five
TSK :/
A stupid turtle carrying her shell everywhere =.=

Whatever.
Back to typing now.
Back in a week or so again
Friday's edmund. Sian-ed for 3 days. working.
But so call look forward to sat which he say wil come find me
(:
WEEEEEHOOOOOO
I find everyone in our batch has matured alot
Also become serious in work despite naughty sometimes
Anyway, tomorrow got ss whole chap6 test & cosine rule maths test
Everyday test.
I think today's late night sleeping again
:(

It's totally bad idea \ choice to miss school.
You gotta miss like either a topic or some impt stuffs.
So I missed out F&N & Maths test
Had a stomachache which were okay later at 7.20am
It hurts at 7.10am, then when I was running late and later decide not to go school
It recovered =.=
My stomach ! ROAR playing tricks on me.
Had to take test & see MsZ on monday
Hopefully I can find them. Teachers keep disappearing can
D:
Went back school thinking at least attend english class
Alas ! MsJ never came too
What bad luck
So I spend the time copying notes & chitchatting
On the whole, didn't regret going back school :))

Working fri sat sun next week
Next week next week next week
Continuously ba
I don't know
I am not richard lim
HAHAHAAHHAHAS.
=.=

I got no idea what to blog about now
But I just killed a cockroach days earlier and I'm over the moon
With baygon, mind ya.
I'm not that gross to smash it on it's head.
Okay. Gone for now
Back in a couple of days or so .

A super short post before I go to sleep
I overslept in bus 159 from toa payoh
Ended up at compass which was like. EHH
Tomorrow I still must go there for work.
>.<
Eyes damn pain now, contacts damn dry earlier on
I just can't control myself not to sleep in bus already
Everday's tiring .

Today marks the happiest day in 2008 (:
Thanks MsZ for making us partner :DDDDDDDDDD
LOL =.=
I'm starting to really love love F&N .
But I hate coursework =.=

Life's full of ups & downs
Even the happiest person on earth will be sad at least for one day too.
D:

Random . Nights.

I'm not enjoying every moment of this
I need a listening ear
I'm so bottled up right now
And I feel like exploding
Oh god.
D:

Morning shift-ed
Last minute changing
Tired dragging of myself up
Slept in both journey home / work
Nearly miss stop
Had breakfast (:
Miss him throughout work :DDDD
Ate two burgers but still hungry
They said I'm scary
Met oliver and it's his last day of attachment
Found out who's shift for that particular day of my working
Working four days next week
Not happy with the schedule
Wana work morning for weekends
Had it only for next week
So it's kinda O-K-A-Y

Going to bathe
Want to go AMK Hub
Buy things
Many things
Like thumbdrive
For F&N
Clip
For my hair =.=
Earstud (:
That I've been longing
LOL.
Byebye
Need to do F&N coursework too
Night shift
For tomorrow
Tiring
Again.
T
S
K
:/

Don't look at this.

I said DON'Tright?
Don't know english ars
:X
So fun .

Now I have this super bad habit,
A habit that. Me, loves to sleep at noon
And not at night
So I am now suffering from seriously sucky(s) eyebags + kinda red eyes
Cos I slept with my contacts on too
I told ya it's super bad habit already rights
I'm lazy and did expect such a thing to ever occur
TSK D:

Received N level question for F&N
Early? Nahs. Art students already got their's last year
Super super super stressed & idea-less
Actual not so super stress ba. Just that I really need alot of time & idea to plan out that perfect coursework .
Oh beautiful woohooooooo ~
It's about eggs this time.
Sound retarded? Got alot of information to elaborate de
Another is about pulses and legumes,
But I prefer the egg question, and I think everyone will choose eggs !
HAHAHAHAHHAH !

Today the first super short conversation between him and me since 2008 goes like this.
ME: Hello. byebye.
HIM: Byebye
W/o emotions. Super formal.
Then later,
HIM: Byebye
+ Little bit of smiles.
HAAHAHAHHAH !!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL =.=
It's just a byebye
But it makes me happy can
WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO what can you do
hahah crazy =.=

& he's super handsome with that oh-so-call spike

but later he flat it down =.=
Byebye and tomorrow's 5 period of that cher's maths
Oops I forgot his name
:X

I'm going emo these few days
Going back on my daily routine of every night crying to sleep
It's just all my fault.
All mine.
See, I told you I'm going emo.
>.<
Nearly cried today hoho
Crazy. crazy. crazy ..
D:
I gotta be brave somehow !
I want to be there for him when he need someone the most now !
I just. I just want him to be happy again.
And I want to, too.

Couldn't find any nicenice blogskin
Or probably I'm too lazy
Hadn't had any mood to eat like crazy \ laugh like crazy too
I just. Broke down.
Plus all those stress studies are giving, me myself giving too.
So envy lower sec(s) happily playing around while upper sec(s) sitting for a sudden quiz \ test
Is this how life should be?
Is this what we call growing up and be more responsible or something?
I just am too afraid.
I'm afraid that you will don't look and think of me anymore
I seemed so invisible to you.
I'm afraid to flunk every of my exams
I'm afraid to be lonely
I'm afraid to grow up
I'm afraid to lose you, although I already had, I think.
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW DDDD:
Seemed like a small babaye.
But I really am afraid.
Failure ; failure.

I told ya I'm emo.
But I will still try to smile (:
Whenever you see me around
However, smiling doesn't mean I'm happy .

& I lack courage
& I feel guilty
& i'm so disappointed with myself.
I just am unable to look, or even talk to him.
HAIS :(

School hasn't been very good.
Those looking forward feeling has faded and changed to sad ones
Everyday's the same. Lessons, stress, and no bowenians at all after lessons
It's so .. odd.
Those laughters. those joys
WHERE ARE THEY
I don't like this type of life.
I don't want to get serious with studies yet
I don't want to face noone else when we are off from extra lessons
I want life to be back as it is
I want you.
I need you.
I want the past.
There's a saying, once you don't have something, you regret
But when you have it, you take it for granted.
Yes, you don't know what you've got till it's gone.
Very often used in this blog.
Cos it applies very well to me
The owner, and one who sets a very very good example for this phrase
Totally sucks this girl.
I hate it.
D:

I just want to smile at you, at least for once
I feel like shouting to the whole world for what I've become
But this is all my fault, my doings, my decisions
All I had to blame.
I hate myself luhs.
I've lost you.
But I will still try to be happy.
Lucks .
):
I'm so emo today.

1230 end lessons today !
Was happy for once in 2008 and for these few months
He. (:
Won't list it out here as I don't want anyone to know
Ask me if you want to know but depending on whether do I want to tell you or not lors
(: (: (:
To think that I even had the craziest idea that popped into my mind this morning
See, I think too much liao
Too much sensitive thinking .
That's me, a sensitive, very. girl
Will mood swing easily too. Can laugh at this moment and cry the next
Am trying my best to be more better every year though
Gotta control and grow up !
I'm gona be 16 soon !
Errm, okay all rights, 6 months later
-.-
October will be damn terrifying month for all of us sec 4 and 5
N(s) & O(s) !
These two days teachers are all asking us to plan out our target and stuffs
MrsY even showed us her's & her husband's degree
So cool (:

However, I was dropped to class number eight for chinese
Was formally from class four la. (taking express chinese)
Class eight will be taking N level chinese instead of O,
And secondary five we were be taking O when the others needn't anymore
May be a hussle, but it certainly benefits me and all of us as we really need to improve and not just to jump to express chinese straight away.
Anyway, my chinese wasn't that good at all.
I was lazy and didn't plan to listen to my chinese teacher at all.
Not only that, I didn't even complete her homework on time and not to mention, even given like one whole week.
It was then one day I admitted to her that I didn't understand her teaching, which was 2 years later.
Wow, I'm so good at hiding something.
ZZZS
So well. Maybe this was a better plan for me after all.
Won't be considering to go back to class 4
It seemed saddening but even if I go back, I won't assure not to fail / come back class eight.
So, let it be (:
The teacher is not bad by the way, MrS head of chinese
Hahaha hope can improve chinese by he's help (:

&& I'm 1.71m !
4x kg !
KNN !
I don't care I'm going to cancel the 0.01m : 1.7 1 m
And increase the 4x to 5x ! : 4 5x kg
I hate that weight la
Although got increase
SUCKS.
Picture number one : My socks

They all go "WA" when they saw my socks.
Some even thought I went to cut it -.-
I did not okay. It's sold at minitool this way.
Warm and comfort :D
I know I have big feet.
LOL (:

Picture number two three and four : Black hair me

SEE ! I told you I very obedient one.
Once bitten, twice shy :D
But is not black actually.
It's dark brown, as I wanted
Some said can see the colour but some can't
I don't care ! This time tio caught I will say it's black no matter what.

Edit. I'm bored.
I like this by the way.

Edit again. I'm bored bored.

Okay I'm superly happy today !
He looked at me !
He still love me !
WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

See, I can't control myself not to say out.
& the more I look at him the more handsome he gets (:
But I'm still overwhelmed by remorse D:
I apologize.. ):

School started way too wrong today
FOR ME
I had myself to blame, obviously
I tried to be a typical guai kia by clipping up my fringe and folding down sleeves automatically for the first time and plus w/o being said.
I hoped to leave a good impression for every teachers
Especially for the first day,
And for the mess and troubles I had caused last year
Problematic child, you could describe me as.
I failed sadly, as mentioned .
I was caught for my hair color, brown
I was so dumb enough for MrG to spot me as I was standing under the sun
It's more obvious luhs.
Was put to the 'extrem' cases + call parents + sent home
It was so boring down there at foyer can
Stupid sun.
If not I don't think can see the lors
ROARRRRRRRRRRRR
So had no choice but dye hair.
But I used hairspray instead (:
& I hate black hair !!!
Am planning to dye dark dark dark dark brown tomorrow after school
Black is out for me ! D:

Me, with black hairspray.
Actually it's kind of allright
I looked more younger
But I just don't like the colour laa :X

Anyway, as expected
Form is Jessica Yong
Lessons will end at 330-4pm for Mon-Thur
Teachers this year all seemed fierce for a2
Probably cause of all the complains we received
Preview of our time table located below :

That's it.
The doom days beginning's tomorrow.
Studies are first priority now.
Heard from eve form said no 3 best subjects now.
Changed to must pass 5 subjects including maths and english
And I think I am going to faint and die this moment
Just got to do my very best and not even pon anymore !
Oh jessie.
HAIS.

I had this thinking of going back bowen after sec 5 when I don't even know can pass sec 4 + 5 anot with red hair and woohoo !
Make discipline teachers go fury fury fury :DD
Evil tskkkkkkk
And I'm fat !
Okay, FATTER (:
From 23 to 25 for my waist line
:DD
That time I measure wrongly till 27 and I nearly died can
But I don't know my weight lehs
Hope it's 50 at least?
Just five ++ kg more :(((
I hate to be a bamboo
LOL
Random psps
Tomorrow's 5 period of maths
=.=
Good teacher please. Aww sucks.
Somehow I must learn to love bowen.
Suay yi bai nian.

To recap about the topic I am going to bring up later, Burgerking had changed uniform for like one month plus already.
This conversation happened yesterday at breadtalk.
I asked liana to accompany me buy some bread to eat as I was hungry .
We chose our bread(s) and queued up for payment.
And I treat her okay (: SEE I SO KIND :DDDDDDD
Back to topic -.-
Breadtalk manager : Aie? What brand? (To us)
Us: *confused* What what brand..
Breadtalk manager: What brand.. Err..
Me: ORHHH ! Burgerking lars. *thinking, this is called company not BRAND -.- . We are not goods or products -.-*
Breadtalk manager: Burgerking ars. When change uniform ? Is it because new year ar ? So bright leh !
Me: *Don't tell me you think we looked like HONGBAOs. We are not ! -.-*
Liana and me was laughing like siao later on. Our uniform clearly shows burgerking

We aren't KFC or what all rights
I know I seemed bad as I kept mocking about peoples' speeches and comments
But is super out of point and is funny lors
HAHHAHAHAHAHA
(:

Gona bring back 4 boxes of drumlets later
To cele ! Cele cele cele !
Celery -.-
Celebrate nahs. The end of holidays
LOL. No la. Cos the drumlets nice ma
See I so kind.
But the money's from my mum btw -.-
HEHEHEHEH

2008 (:
2008 (:
2008 (:
Brand new start !

Didn't really counted down today
But i was high-ed and shouted happy new year when the time strikes
But noone cared about me -.-
However, I'm still happy at least not at home 'countdown'
Ehhs wuteva .
Message sending keep failing despite trying alot alot times
I gave up about 10 minutes later, and that's when all those smses came in instead of me sending out
Like I had mentioned, I GAVE UP liao.
So never reply, paiseh X:

Starhub just.. lag behind singtel and m1 luhs
Hais.
Payday coming in one week time
Ohh wee I'm excited (:
Aren't going to spurge but am going to survive through these extra expenses for at least half a year?
Sucks.
No job-doing for sec 4 & 5 maybe
Concentrating on studies :DDDD

Okay I go bathe already
Tomorrow working with zhikang and vincent at counter with farz last day :((((
So saddening ! Want stay late also can't cos tmr tmr school resume
:/
That benson better be good.